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Sunday, September 14, 2008
Confessions Galooooooooore.
Because I'm slowly losing grip of my sanity. hahaha. I found this really jolog survey in the midst of my EVP-ing and Acad Mode. haha. oh well.
DISCLAIMER: LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG SURVEY. hahaha.
CONFESSIONS.
1. Is anything wrong?
DISCLAIMER: LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG SURVEY. hahaha.
CONFESSIONS.
1. Is anything wrong?
- WIth me? I think so. I haven't really been feeling well these past few days. More of emotional stress, actually. There are just so many things that are happening at the same time.
2. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends?
- I erased my list of featured friends in friendster about a couple of months ago. Why? Simply because I could no longer feel the same attachment that bound us together before. Everything's changed now. It would be hard to go back to how it used to be. I may be the most idealistic person Camille knows but I'm really not feeling very idealistic about us. Again, so many things have already changed. I couldn't even look at her in the eye. I hate her so much that just the mere thought of her exasperates me already. Don't get me wrong. I tried to reach out. I did my part. I even visited her when the need to do so arouse. I did my part as her friend. But i felt her blocking me off. And I'm just not the type of person who begs for attention. If you don't like me, fine. I would do my part to change how you feel and to make you feel how i feel. But it takes two to tango. And to hope that she'll do her part is just whatever. I'm so sick and tired of everything.
(ayun naman. 2nd quetsion palang. hahaha.)
(ayun naman. 2nd quetsion palang. hahaha.)
3. Do you want to go to college?
- I'm already in college. And I love my college. I love my course. I'm having so much fun. I'm enjoying school. And everything about school. Note: School. Meaning Academics. Period.
4. How many kids do you want to have?
- I want three! haha. Two princes and a little princess. :)
5. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
- Would pass for a yes. haha. Mommy and i are not super close. I don't tell her my super secrets. But we get along. We clash sometimes because we have the same personality but, yeah, our would pass as something good. As for my Dad, he's usually away. I don't get the chance to talk to him as often as i want to. We weren't brought up in a very chummy way by my parents although i could feel that they're trying to reach out to us. This one's a long story. Don't get me started. hahaha.
6. What did you do for your last birthday?
- Had my dream 'fairy tale' debut. It was very beautiful. It wasn't perfect but it was just right. It was what i wanted. It made me really happy. Big thanks to everyone who showed me their love for me by being in my party. hehe.
7. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- Lying on my bed. Listening to my ipod shuffle. Thinking about how stupid I was to believe in something that doesn't exist. Thinking about how i can start life again. And thinking... thinking... thinking... while listening to cheeeeeesy music.
8. Name something you cannot wait for?
- CCSHS Alumni Homecoming. I want to know if there is still something there. Here. So i can finally move on. Totally. Completely. Yes. Cheesy. hahaha.
9. What is one thing you would change in your life?
- As much as I want to change so many thing in my ultramega erroneous life, i wouldn't. Because wherever, whatever, whoever I am now is where, what, who He wants me to be. I don't believe in living in regrets. I believe that life is good when we're having fun (bambini, 2005). hahaha. I may have done sooooo many 'kagagahans' but that's me. And i've learned to love the imperfect me. Although alam ko naman na perfect talga ako. charows.
10. Last thing you ate/drank?
10. Last thing you ate/drank?
- Chocolate. It's called emotional eating. Man, i'm destroying my diet because of my stupid heartache. whahahahahaha. erase. erase. No heartaches. Gaga lang talaga ako. hahahaha. NExt!
11. Whats your favorite month?
- December, January, February.
12. What is your least favorite month?
- I don't know. Wala????? I really don't know. wala.
13. Do you like peanut butter?
- Yep! Peanut butter and jelly sandwich is the best. Pwede na rin ung peanut butter ni Kuya Monay sa UP. Kahit na mahal, masarap naman. :)
14. Who's making you feel the way you are right now?
14. Who's making you feel the way you are right now?
- hahahahaha. Stupid Question. hahahaha. Somebody. Somebody. Somebody. weh. leche. naalala ko tuloy. hahaha. tama na. next!
15. Most visited web pages?
15. Most visited web pages?
- Yahoomail, Friendster, Multiply, Facebook, Blogger, Google. The first one, for the most obvious reason. The next 4, for keeping connections tight. and for stalking purposes. hahaha. The latter for everything.
16. Last person to make you mad?
16. Last person to make you mad?
- Can't remember. Her? Please go back to number 2. hahahaha. or if not her, myself, maybe? hahahha.
17. Pepsi or coke?
- I'm not fond of softdrinks. Too much sugar makes me feel bloated and just plain sinful.
18. Have you hugged anyone in the past week?
- yep! I think. JV, some assers, and LOIS, my dear puppy. :) Note that, the question was who I hugged not who hugged me. I honestly need one. as in. right now. hmmm.
19. Fun thing to look forward to this month?
- CMC Alumni Homecoming. Meeting prominent CMC alumni. Aside from that, i don't know anymore. I'm so tired already. I just want to take a break from everything. But I can't. I have to work. work. work. And September means work. So yeah, nothing really 'FUN' to look forward to. Just same old boring stuff.
20. What do you think about your siblings?
20. What do you think about your siblings?
- uhg. Kristina's so into her boyfriend. very high school. JV's thinner and is full of energy. Very elementary. I hope i have what they have. Time and love life. demmit. I am, ugh, toxic. Very college.
21. Do you have any pets?
21. Do you have any pets?
- Yep! LOIS. my cute hush puppy. He's actually sleeping under my chair right now. cute. She makes me happy. now. :)
22. What's your favorite number?
- 06. Since grade school. I don't know why. I just like it. :)
23. What do you do after school/work?
- After school, i attend to my responsibilities in Broad Ass. or if i'm feeling too lazy to do so, i hang out with the assers. We kill time talking about anything and everything. We eat. We go wherever. We play. We watch. We do whatever. Then we go home. To sleep. no, erase that. We go home, to study til morning. Then go back to school. We hardly sleep. That's toxic. That's life. Saya!
24. Do you know how to swim?
- No! I want to learn how. Pero nabaon na siya sa limot. hahaha. SOmeday. Someday.
26. Do you have a crush?
- Yeah! I stalked him today. Googled. Friendstered. Multiply-ed. Which reminds me. I'll facebook-search him. hahaha. ayun. walang lumabas. demmmit.
FRIEND CONFESSIONS
1. Are you jealous of one or more of your friends?
- ugh. hmmm. hahahaha. i think i am. hahaha. jologs.
2. Have you known any of your friends your whole life?
- by whole, meaning since birth? Nope. Some i met during elem days, some during high school, and some just now. College. But yeah, some of them, i feel like i've been with them since birth. Friends are treasures. I value them so much. (pakshirt. cheeeeeeeeeese! hahaha)
3. Are any of your friends taller than you?
- naman! Kiki! hahaha. and many others.
4. Have you ever been mad by a friend?
- First, construct your question properly. Second, yes. Please go back to question number 2 under confessions. hahaha. Don't get me started. Life's a bitch. And so am I. hahaha.
5. Do you have your friend's phone number's memorized?
- No. Errr. no. I don't know.
6. Have you lost or forgotten a friends phone number?
6. Have you lost or forgotten a friends phone number?
- yes. I have a very bad memory. hahaha. and bad attention span.
7. Have you been to most of your friends houses?
7. Have you been to most of your friends houses?
- Their places? Nope. But most of them had been to mine. It has always been that way since high school.
8. Do you love most of your friends?
- I love my friends. Period. If i don't love you, you're not a friend. You're just an acquaintance or a colleague or WAS a friend. haha. labo. 8. Do you love most of your friends?
HABIT CONFESSIONS:
1. Do you play with things when nervous?
- I play with everythign within reach. I also bte my nails. But I'm trying so hard to suppress it. That's why i alse have them manicured and painted daintily. So i could fight the urge to do so.2. Do you have an odd obsession with knives?
- Duhr?! None. But I have an odd obsession over super super super soft pillows. and marshmallows. and gelatins. hahahaha. :)
3. Do you sleep with the door open or closed?
- Closed. I love privacy.
4. Is there at least one sound you can't stand?
4. Is there at least one sound you can't stand?
- Right now? Her voice. hahahahaha. and his voice. Pwede ba silang burahin sa mundo? hahaha. or ako nalang burahin niyo sa mundo. hahaha.
5. What is your worst habit?
5. What is your worst habit?
- whining and whining and whining and whining. and if i get tired of whining, i'll start ranting and ranting and ranting. Then i'll whine again and so on. haahahahaha. I'm seniora reklamadora. hahaha.
LOVE CONFESSIONS
1. Do you currently like/love someone?
- can i skip this? I don't know. I'm confused. hahaha. I think both. I'm in like and in love with two different people. hahahaha.
2. Do you want to kill one of your ex's?
- I've never had an ex because i'm an NBSB. BuT! I want to kill somebody right now. I don't want to see him ever again because it's just so hard for me to see him. I lose all my defenses when I see him. I hate him so much but i hate myself more because I know that no matter how much I hate him, I cannot hate him enough to not be moved by him, to not be controlled by him, to not fall for him. shet. die me. die.
3. Has one of your crushes ever called you self-centered before?
- hahahaha. oo, ata. i can't remember. I theeenk. hahaha. Oo. Because I am. I love myself, that's why.
PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS
1. Do you think abortions are horrible?
- They are. I understand why people had to go through them. But I really just can't take the idea of killing something and someone at their most innocent state. Jozko. Walang kalaban-laban ung mga bata. As much as these mothers didn't want to be pregnant at the wrong time, these kids also didn't want to be made at the wrong time. They didn't ask for it. Wala silang kasalanan. Bakit sila ang dapat na magbayad. Bakit sila ang dapat isacrifice? oh well. i can go on and on and on. But i better stop now. I'm tired. hahaha.
3. Are you against or think gay marriage is bad?
- Who am I to stop people from being 'so happy together'? Again, much like in my argument in the first issue, i don't think these gay people wanted to be any 'different' in the first place. Some would argue that they can choose to not be gay. But I don't know. I think if you're meant to be a gay, you'll be one. Whether you like it or not. And as for us, girls and boys, we are very well awared that we, you, can never get to choose who to fall in love with. We can decide who to learn how to love but we can never choose who we'll fall in love with. That's why it's called 'falling' in love in the first place. There's this invisible gravity that pulls us towards somewhere really unexpected. And much like us, they too 'fall' in love with people. hahaha. and so on.
4. Is pink an ugly color?
5. Needles aren't so horrible?
- No. I''ve experienced worse. hahahahha. Paddle? charos lang. hahahahha.6. You have plenty of secrets?
- hahahahaha. naman. period.I'm sleepy. I better end this na. Ciao. :)