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Monday, March 31, 2008
Group Date. Cancelled.
I'm so pissed off, frustrated and depressed.
I'm so gaga, i'm actually crying while typing this entry.
You know the feeling when you want something so bad yet you can't have it? You get frustrated because you know that no matter what you do, you can't get whatever it is that you want to get. Because you don't have control over the situation. Then out of frustration, you get pissed off. You project your disappointment to anything. You regress as if it'll give you what you want. You get depressed because after exhausting all known defense mechanisms, still you can't do anything. You still got nothing- the most tangible nothing ever.
Wow.
We were supposed to go out tonight. A long overdue group date, we finalized our plans last night via text. But due to some unforeseen circumstances, we had to cancel our gimik.
I've long been looking forward to this. I don't know. Maybe because I miss us. I miss the way we were before. (Oh shit. I'm crying again.) Sure, there were those intrigas but we were happy. I don't know. We're still happy. But a lot of things have changed over time. We grew old fast. I guess that's just how it is in Broad Ass. We're officers now. President and Vice Presidents. And drew's not a resident anymore. So Responsibilities + Proximity = Less chances of doing what we were doing before. No G moments. But really really happy moments.
This date means a lot to me. Too bad we had to cancel.
If only i could turn back time then nobody will have to grow old. Nobody will have to leave.
I really really really hate this.
Oh well.
Someday, groupmates. Someday.
I'm so gaga, i'm actually crying while typing this entry.
You know the feeling when you want something so bad yet you can't have it? You get frustrated because you know that no matter what you do, you can't get whatever it is that you want to get. Because you don't have control over the situation. Then out of frustration, you get pissed off. You project your disappointment to anything. You regress as if it'll give you what you want. You get depressed because after exhausting all known defense mechanisms, still you can't do anything. You still got nothing- the most tangible nothing ever.
Wow.
We were supposed to go out tonight. A long overdue group date, we finalized our plans last night via text. But due to some unforeseen circumstances, we had to cancel our gimik.
I've long been looking forward to this. I don't know. Maybe because I miss us. I miss the way we were before. (Oh shit. I'm crying again.) Sure, there were those intrigas but we were happy. I don't know. We're still happy. But a lot of things have changed over time. We grew old fast. I guess that's just how it is in Broad Ass. We're officers now. President and Vice Presidents. And drew's not a resident anymore. So Responsibilities + Proximity = Less chances of doing what we were doing before. No G moments. But really really happy moments.
This date means a lot to me. Too bad we had to cancel.
If only i could turn back time then nobody will have to grow old. Nobody will have to leave.
I really really really hate this.
Oh well.
Someday, groupmates. Someday.